vague

i haven't written in a very long while now , for a simple fact that so many things have been happening around me , more posts to follow on that part .
what made me write this post now ?
because when it rains , and when you have tata sky connection at your place and when it says your digicomp doesn't receive signal because of the rain and you cannot watch master-chef Australia , you automatically choose the other option of wasting time ( like how my amma calls it), computer . even when sitting on computer the first thing we all do is to log into facebook , ( accept that you do it too!we all do . I DO .) and when everything on facebook gets depressing like hey-look-at-me-i-am-so-cool-i have-a -dslr-so- i- summa-keep-taking -pictures-or-sad-lovefailure-status messages,or status messages with too many !!!!!!!!!'s or :):P:|:(:('s on them that is when i get into blogging .honest . i follow around 20 other blogs , so reading what the others have written become more interesting sometimes, sometimes ? no, always .
so its a combination factor and a accumulation of distractions that doesn't/hasn't let me write all these days, but from today , i have decided to write something , some random thing, at-least one post per month about whats happening in my life whether you ask for it or not .



okay , so what do i write about in this post ?
all right , remember i wrote a post on the new years eve ?
according to what i wrote and mentioned in that post and comparing the standards of where i am and what i am doing right now , well , i would say i am not even half way through my goals when half of the year has gone by already .
this year for me , is going to be a lot of pressure for en number of reasons like :
1) being in the final year and not being able to answer my parents question of "kannamoodi kanna thorandha april vandhudum , adhukapram enna panna pora ne ? "
translation : within a blink of the eye April will come by , WTH are your future plans ?
2) being a member of the students council (yay ?), managing various activities and carrying out everything successfully (!) PRESSURE I TELL YOU .
3) not being able to understand anything in costing or income tax and the pressure of not having any arrears and finishing my UG and the like.
4) being the first commerce student in the family , the pressure of doing something and scaling some heights.(!)again .
5)the pressure of finishing my diploma by the time i finish college.
bottom line , decide what am i going to do with my future !


when you finish schooling and come out, you concretely know that you have to do some UG in some college / university , but college life doesn't work that way .you make your future after college . THAT choosing the right decision just cannot happen in the inkypinkyponky way , no matter how badass you are . i am 19 now , turning 20 this october* and i am simply not able to digest the fact that i have been in this world for 20 years now and still am confused about what am i going to do in the future .not being able to decide what i exactly want .
my problem is i get content with what i have .(* inner voice - "change it mahalakshmi , change it" *)
best part , people are talking about getting me married already ( the oldies in the house are a problem sometimes)


so atleast by the time i write my next post , i should have scrutinized the areas of my interests and narrowed down my future plans .(!)again.
wait for the next post .






*yes , my birthday is on october , exactly on the day of diwali this year (YAY) , so dual wish me :D also my end semesters start the very next day . i choose to watch the regular awesome sun tv festival special programs and movies . so semester = god is great story .
and i am not able to digest the fact that ladygaga is being featured on india's more desirable - irrelevant , i know , couldn't control writing that. okay . go now .